Monday, December 31, 2007

Family reunion

That's the advantage of utilising technology wisely.


Thursday, December 27, 2007

And so.. this is my christmas eve

You know there is a moment when you try to turn your head when answering someone's call over you, and you feel a slight spin in your world.

And you know there is time when your boyfriend/girlfriend or you yourselves softly and gently touch you, slide over your arm (note, it's softly) and you still can feel the puncturing pain on the surface on your skin.

And you also know that there is this day when you feel cold beneath your body and you can feel that the air around you are almost in the freezing level and yet your body temperature is higher than usual.

And you know these are all the signs and symptons of getting sick, precisely, having flu and cough.

And you also must know I'm having all these signs and symptons on the christmas eve, when I was hanging out in the middle of the town with friends, and in which I have to tahan until the clock strikes twelve. Well, my friends are always kind, they asked me to go home first but I insist not to. And that is me.

And only on that day I know that I can't take a Panadol. I have backache/boneache after taking it. It added up the burden on me. Ish.. Sick + stupid side effect of taking a Panadol... it really ruined my christmas eve. I was destined to have a bad bad christmas eve.

And you know I'm really sick now. Merry christmas. Merry belated christmas. I shall now wait for new year.

*Dang it.. what's wrong with my line..why is it so difficult for me to upload those pictures... I just wanna show you guys my sick face..
it's not really scary...*

Monday, December 24, 2007

No more blood donation FOREVER

I am sad now.

went a blood donation drive with Ying Huey.

Be informed that I can't donate blood FOREVER for I have G6PD deficiency, which is incurable FOREVER.

Really sad case.

Went google-search to re-confirmed.

"Can I donate blood if I have G6PD Deficiency?
No! Currently the Red Cross does not accept G6PD deficient blood."

Found in G6PD official site. With the exclaimation mark summore...

And then try to find again. I must find something which is contrary to this.

Then I found...

"Q. When I was informed that I have G6PD deficiency, I was told that I couldn’t donate blood. Is it true?

A. The great majority of people with G6PD deficiency are healthy and do not experience any symptoms clinically. As such, they are still allowed to make blood donations. However we usually would advise donors with G6PD deficiency to donate plasma or platelets via apheresis technique instead of whole blood.
The red blood cells of those with G6PD deficiency are also more fragile.
(really arr? I have fragile red blood cells.. handle with caressssssss plz..)
These red blood cells have a shorter lifespan and hence would not be suitable for transfusion to anaemic patients....
The donor’s weight must be 51 kg or more to qualify for apheresis donation..."

Ahaaa!! Alright... I heard this is more painful. Should gain weight from now - real easy case.. haha..

oh yea.. btw.. thanks donorweb for letting me know.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Welcome to my PINKish world.

One day, Shirleen asked me, "You really like PINK huh?" when I wore this to college.
Oh shit.... what a pose.... 60s retro? 70s retro? FuRongJieJie?

I like PINK?

Seriously, I have never been those kind of pinkie person... I'm not a fan of hello kitty's. Somehow.. I donno how.. there appear alot of PINK stuff around my house. They are like ... everywhere...

Welcome to my room. Open the PINK wooden door.

Please.. dad... it has been more than 13 years old.. Can we change it....?

Then step into my bedroom, you will see this.
Oooo... 21-year-old PINKy bedroom set... Not mine... I mean.. It was not mine... Currently it is mine.. left by my parents. Oh no.. don't misunderstand. They are still PINK in health. I mean, they are having a new bedroom set.

Come, come, let's open my PINK wardrobe.

Ooo.... PINK hangers.

...A pink skirt.

And.. A top
Plus... all these...
Nop.. I didn't photoshopped it... Erm.. well well.. I did.. I just grayscaled the background.. and the hangers.

And not forgetting.. there are...
Bags... sport bag, school bag, labtop bag, hangout bag... fullfilled with the element of PINK...

Next, open my drawer, look for some PINK stuff, and I found..

Oh yea, let's proceed to the bathroom..
Again, 13-year-old PINK tiles. Step on it at least twice a day (huh? u pee twice a day only) nolarrrr... this is not the only toilet in my house.
Hey, check out what I found!!
can't afford to go to those expensive treatment yet.. so.. have to do it myself...


My Ortho- toothbrush and my ordinary toothbrush..

Plus.. in my hamster's cage... PINK spinning wheel.

On my piano,
PINK clear holder which consist of some scores from the movie, Secret.

PINK shoes and PINK socks.... Nono... I really didn't mean it.. the 2 pairs of socks were souveniours from my parents when they went Hong Kong... (wakakakakaka... socks for souveniours...) and the shoes... bcoz.. PINK does look more attractive then any other colors available lorr..

My camera strap and camera bag. Really. I bought it because PINK is really the nicest color among all. Really. I don't like PINK that much.
Last but not least, a magazine on my lab.

..... I'm really not that sweet okay. I'm not that girly either... really not. No more pinkish stuff please... I feel.. sick of it..

Friday, December 21, 2007

I am so mad right now.

I just talked to a guy who does not seem to love his girlfriend anymore.

He told me that his girlfriend is having PMS, and what he has done is just to ask her to go shower. Girls do not really need this lor.

He kept ignoring her, kept making her wait for his reply while he was having fun in his soccer game.

He did not seem to take her complain seriously. He was like.. whatever.. sheyou mad.. just let her you be.. you WILL be alright anywayz.

Well, i'm on the girl's side. Girls do complain. Or maybe she complains too much. I don't know. But guys have to know that girls need to be treated well, need to be pampered, especially on those stupid tiring days.

I was like.. what larrrrr.. how can a guy treat a girl like that... not my matter... still feel mad for that.. aiks.. mood suddenly get spoilt for something that has nothing to do with me. Yet to reach the boiling point. Not my case. Not worth for me to boil.

Really so so so so mad with that guy. And feel so so so so pity for that girl.

Girl, just hoping that you do not rely on him too much. Such a guy really does not deserve it. Plus, relying on him may make him feel irritated and annoyed. He loves his soccer game, just let him be. Guess you ccan rely on something else other than him. Don't get stucked on him.

Well, guy (and you know who I mean.. well yea, it's you), your girl is really meant to be sayang-ed. You really should treat her better. At least be gentle a bit. Be it fake or what, you really have to pujuk her sometimes - unless you feel like giving up this relationship. You are putting your relationship in danger, seriously.

Well, say me k-po or bitchy or whatever you like lar.. It's really kinda waste for a 2-year-relationship to end just because of lack of sparks lor...


*P/s: Actually I'm mad also because I couldn't locate my charger... My phone is out of battery.. and I really can't wake up without an alarm..*

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Lurve it~~

Have been sooooooooooooooooooo busy recently...
For both exams, concert and .. replacement.. duh..

Could it be my busiest moment in my life? I doubted it.. It's just.. busy.. not yet the busiest.. or so far the busiest.. or.. whatsoever..

My schedule run like this in the last couples of weeks:

Monday :
1p.m. - 5p.m. - college

Tuesday :

9.30a.m. - 12.30p.m. - LAN (which usually let us go off earlier)
4p.m. - 6p.m. - work...
8p.m. - 9p.m. - dancing class

Wednesday :

simply hanging out - usually takes up a whole day, i.e. shopping centre during daytime, and pasar malam during night time

Thursday :

11a.m. - 4p.m. - watching over the kids practices
4p.m. - 7p.m. - working
7p.m. - 9p.m. - emcee discussion

Friday :

1p.m. - 6p.m. - College
7p.m. - 9p.m. - Emcee discussion

Saturday :

2p.m. - 7.45p.m. - College

Sunday :

1p.m. - 5.30p.m. - emcee discussion
5.30p.m. - 8p.m. - own practice

Extra little thing :
1) Sports Carnival on 3 days before the mock exam starts.
Erm.. I have never been a sport person - seriously. It was my first time of joining an official netball competition. Get influenced by a person whom I like very much lately - April.
Pianoforte Concert Just For you on 2 days before the mock exam starts.
3) Replacement for dear Suet Mun from 12.30p.m. - 4p.m. on a day before the mock exam starts.

See... can't dig out anytime to study.. so... dear parents, do not blame me if I fail... I have did my best for turning up.. Some of my friends did not even attend the mocks.. You may say that I am giving excuses for failing the exams.. but really.. I do not have time to study... n... please... do not count Wednesday in.. It has always been my day to relax..

Alright.. you may say that.. duh.. you asked for it.. don't take up the responsible-LAH if you can't afford it... but.. well.. I love busy life.. I'm not complaining.. I'm just saying that I am busy..

Alright... last paper tomorrow.. Law of contract... shall back to study that now...

Oh.. before that.... some recent pictures taken on those mentioned events..

Sports Carnival

Inter July 2007~

Hooiseh.. see see? that's me~!!! I was running!! under the rain!!!

Nah.... GD arrrrr... the useless GD on the planet~~

Soaked in the rain~

Primary school pose


Camwhoring during the rest of 43 bars out of 300+ bars in my part

Camwhoring during waiting for my dear emcee partners to appear


In the waiting room while half rehearsal was on - which did not require MC

In the waiting room

With my Musical Family - Hin Ee Jeng was too busy at that moment

Camwhoring at the backstage

Supper at mamak...

Tired lar dude... really have to back to study now... hooi!!! 3.31a.m.!! more coming soon~~~~

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Secret revealed

While I was practising with my fellow band players as the preparation for the concert on this coming Saturday, I realised '3 missed calls' written on my hand phone screen. This 3 missed calls were made by the same person, my dad. Despite the number of the missed calls and thinking it's not so urgent and further thinking that my dad would call me that if it was that important, I ignored it and continue with my practising and the discussion of our costumes.

Right after that, I went for dinner with my fellow friends and informed my dad about it. I got a message which sounds like 'sms me after dinner.. pls..' I was like.. shit.. he said 'pls..' means it is really urgent. I was suspecting that he has something to talk to me, and it was later proven that my suspect was correct and even the topic of which I predicted was correct. Clever me. OK, back to the fact. I went on to have a very delightful dinner with my fellow friends which took about an hour after the message sent. I am a bad girl, you know.

No more yelling, no more stomping on the stairs, no more tears printing on the pillow, no more protest by starvation, no more self-imprisoning in the room. There were only rational conversation between two intelligent people. Oh yea, did I mention that it was about they know the fact that I did not break up with my boyfriend, instead, further being his classmate in KL? They have never been approved on this relationship ever since the day we started. Perhaps, I should say my mom started to hate him and made a lot of negative (false) assumptions ever since she saw the condom in his wallet when he went swimming with me one day. I really understand how parents think about this. I understand why they never accepted my explanation that so far I had done nothing which could be related to that condom.

Alright, back to the fact again. Dad said he is really in a difficult situation. Contrasting to me, mom and grandma dislike him sooooooo much. Hey dad, I have always been in a hard time too over these 2 years. How I wish I could bring him back for dinner, how I wish I could bring him together with our family trip. How I wish bla bla bla bla bla... He proudly said that he can run a large company that well, then went on say that he couldn't even solve this tiny little family matter.

Further, I requested him to clarify everything. Straight forward. 'What you guys dislike about him?' Surprise to him, I could rebut every single thing that he could mention of. Erm.. well, it's the truth.

His lifestyle? He's trying to make his own life by working part time while studying, like your daughter here. Oh yea, did I mention that he is considering to be the MixFM VJ?
Heard that you are not happy in your relationship? (oh... they took a peep on my diary~~nvm nvm, it's ok)Every relationship has its own problem. There are of course, happiness and unhappiness blended together. You couldn't expect a relationship which is free from any problem. Grandma hates grandpa smoking and playing mahjong, grandma yell at grandpa about this, so what? You and mom, quarrel quite alot also, so what?
His face is not so likable.. (wtf..) He is born with such face. Nothing can do about that. So you think my face is really very likable?? How come there haven't been anyone after me then??
He might be taking advantage on you. So far it hadn't happened yet (you know what I mean). It has been two years. If nothing had happened, means nothing would happen also. So he left his family and flew over KL to study just for that something? I'm not the only girl in Sabah anyway. Plus, I couldn't confirm that I would be as safe as to be him if I made a new boyfriend.
His future? Erm.. His command of language is better than your daughter. Guess he could be a better legal practitioner than your daughter?
Further point Your daughter's class end at 7.45p.m. Isn't that a good thing that someone can walk her to the parking lot? Well, you know Petaling street better than me yea??

It's always easier to tell a truth than a lie. I was expressing all those like sooooo smooth. It was like so well prepared. I personally find that these are quite convincing... and dad said, 'Well, I will try to talk to your mom to negative those of her discrimination towards him'... Yet, problems has not been solved yet.

The day after that day, mom and me did not really bring this up. I know she is feeling unhappy everytime I say I'm going to college, cause he is my classmate. But really, what to do? he is my classmate, a fate that couldn't be changed.

Arggggghhhh.... really hate it.. why they dislike him that much....that he's 28 days younger than me?? arghhhhhhh.......Secret reveal, yea, I know, but when I can bring everything up to the surface? God.. grant me one day of it... would you??

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Does virginity matter?

p/s: It has nothing to do with the virginity of the olive oil. I do love food. but it doesn't really concern me of how virgin is the olive oil

Identity of the following characters are to be kept confidential.

For once, 'Virginity is the best wedding present for your life companion.' And I am grown up in a family with such concept. Till today.

For now, looking at this question, I might receive feedback (expressed or unexpressed) from people (who probably no longer a virgin) which sounds, 'wtf.. such a nerd Q..'

On my age of 15, me and my friends had a talk with our senior, A, who was 20 at that time. Gradually, it came to sex.

One of my friend: have you ever had sex with F (who was that time his girlfriend) ?
A: by the time you reach 20, you would feel that it wouldn't be a problem for having sex, for most of the 20s did have sex.'

A common draggie 'oooowwwwhhhhhh...' by the naive us has been expressed as the reply. And A said again, 'trust me, you would understand it.'

Following, another 'ooooowwwwwhhhhhh......'

That time, the real naive us were to criticise those who had pre-marital sex. We were really anti pre-marital sex. We were like, how could they do these. aren't they not shameful when doing this. i won't do this. i will keep it for my real hubby. i will protect my body well. i won't disappoint my parents. Bla bla bla bla bla. Things like those.

Years later, as expected, things change. Four of us, seemed to have forgotten what we had stated 5 years ago.

B: I still haven't forgotten. I still think that we really should protect our body well. Better worry than sorry. I think my future hubby will be happy that I'm still a virgin - the rare one.
C: How could you guys not fantasising? We are human-being. Things are hard to be controlled. When you need it, you need it.
D: I play safe. I play safe sex with someone who is economically secured - u know, just in case..
E : Yea. Safe sex. To avoid the creation of unwanted life. Well, I would want it, but it's not the time. I still hope to save my cherry for my hubby, though.

One of them is me, of course. I wouldn't reveal which one. Guess.

See, not much of contradiction though, but things really have changed. Even nerdie geeks like us gradually forgotten the importance of virginity, then what could we say about the world out there?...

More and more people at my age are getting married - for the accidentally creation of the little life. Some seem happy, some seem not. It seems that the matter of virginity is no longer to be concerned. What come to be more important is that the safety of it. Parents no longer giving advice like protecting your body and so on, it has changed to avoid pregnancy and things like these.

Well yea.. safe sex seems to be more important than virginity. Don't you think so?

XxXx Edited xXxX

Thanks to Daniel for the information.

free dating sites

Miami Dating

My blog is rated as PG-13... O.o.... Erm.. just because of the word 'sex'??

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


60%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?

Someone said that I blogged too much.
She said that, 'you what also want to blog. you blog until siao liao (insane).
Erm... 60% addicted... not too 'siao' right??

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Reasons of should and should not be together

20 Reasons of why we should not be together

1) We could hardly communicate when we need to
2) I would never satisfy with him
3) I would never satisfy him
4) My parents hate him
5) His friends hate me
5) He doesn't know what is sweet talk
6) He doesn't hold my hand automatically unless I request
7) He doesn't seem to love me anymore
8) I'm too bossy for him
9) I don't see his effort in studies
10) We always blame each other - no matter whose fault is it
11) He feel that he shouldn't treat me good
12) I ask for too much - which he could not provide
13) I'm highly maintained - he could not afford it
14) He would ignore me if I cry - instead of comforting
15) He thought i was strong - I don't look as if I need protection if compared to those slimmy shortie with chickie voice - therefore I never get protected and encouraged
16) I do not feel treated as a girlfriend, sometimes may worse than a friend
17) His words is his sword
18) He would leave me alone when I need him
19) He doesn't treat me like a girl - I don't feel pampered
20) My expectation towards him has never been granted. Life is full of disappointment

1 Reason of why we should be together
I still love him.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Deep inside the heart

I'm not happy. Seriously, I am not.

I wish I could have a boyfriend who treats me like a girlfriend. I want to be someone's girlfriend. I do not know what I am now.

I wish I could have a boyfriend who will say something sweet to me, who will encourage me in some sense, but not bringing me down in some sense.

I wish I could have a boyfriend who lets me feel his protection but not vice versa.

I don't want to be the only one who serves. I really do not want to.

I don't deserve this because I'm bossy? He admitted that he does not treat me good because I'm bossy. I don't think so. I really wish to have someone who really let me feel loved.

Bossy? Too much of care will becomes bossy maybe. I'd like people to be bossy towards me.

I'm tired. I feel like giving up.

I am just a normal girl who likes to be treated in a normal way. Like any other girl friends get treated.

Just not feeling good right now. Again, can't stop crying.

One day in Taman Tasik Perdana + Connaught Pasar Malam

It was too tired last night. I slept freakishly early after showering, which was about 12a.m. Really too tired to post an entry.

Yesterday, I brought my siblings (together with Arthur) to have a walk at Taman Tasik Perdana. It doesn't sound cool at all right? Eek.. Taman Tasik Perdana...

We went to the Bird Park >> National Planetarium (sucks) >> Butterfly Park >> Deer Park >> Tasik Perdana Park >> Pasar Malam.

The pictures speak.

Preparation for the Sushis in the morning. (see, my grandma insisted to help)

Our Masterpiece. (2 layers!! About 40 of them!!)
Torturing the Ostrich??
Sushi time!
Choked by Wasabi.
Bird Show~

'Black Hole' @ National Planetarium. (ceh... ultraviolet lamp)

I hate caterpillar @ the Butterfly Park
The Chungs at the butterfly park

Way to Deer Park.

Ogieee... Finally.. It was a long search to the Deer Park. Later on, we were chased by about 20 monkeys. Didn't get to take any pictures. Afraid that my camera would get grabbed.

Bookworm + Bookworm

The couple

The Siblings

By the way, I didn't take any pictures from Connaught Pasar Malam.