I don't wanna get any pet anymore

Staring at the packet of the so called veterinary formulated kitten food with a blurred vision,
I have this question in my mind,

what is going to eat this in the coming days?

I think my kitten can't make it through tonight.
She can barely moved her body,
but she can't meow now.
She opened her mouth,
I know, she was intended to meow,
but no voice has came out.
I miss the super noisy her.

When I fed her milk,
the milk flowed out of the side of her mouth.
Yes, she is not capable of swallowing anything now.

I can't do anything now but to pray.
Namo Amitabha.
How I wish it is not 11pm now.
I doubt any veterinary clinic is still operating.

Please.
Don't die.
Give me a chance to bring you to the vet.
Give me a chance to feed you the kitten food I have specially bought for you.
Give me the chance to buy you a scratching post.
Give me the chance to buy you those ding-a-ling toys.
Give me the chance to groom you.
(yes shaddup. A cat isn't same with a dog. She will groom herself. Yea)
Give me the chance to love you, to sayang you, to pamper you, to spoil you.
Just, give me a chance to do all these for you.
Just, please.
Don't die.
Live on.
Stay strong.
Strong?
I can't really relate this word to her now.

No picture of the super weak meowmee.
I really can't bear to capture a dying creature,
like how Kevin Carter did to an African child, with that infamous vulture.

Looking at the super skinny and weak kitten,
and speaking of the African child,
I suddenly have the urge to sponsor a child via World Vision.

update (12.42am)
Every blink is accompanied with tears.
I tried to examine her just now.
It's not shocking to see that there is no longer any movement on her stomache.
I hold back my tears for few minutes, and gave her a clearer examination.
Really. No movement.

I laid my hand on her head, and swept over it.
She's still warm, her body is still as soft.
It's still alive.

I gave her a longer observation,
she opened her mouth once in a while to take in air,
struggling through.
The pain is excruciating. By that, I don't mean the kitty. I mean my heart.

I'm gonna pray for her.
I'm gonna sit by her, until she takes in her last breath tonight.
I'm gonna make sure that there is someone to greet her goodbye.

Meomee again~

Check this out - when we first found it.Woola. Garang.

c/f

Shoebox + towel = cozy cozy cozy
(and my bro showered it with Shokubutsu when I was not in. Damn stupid lar him.
Doesn't he know it's pantang to shower a cat?
Common knowledge leh man.
Especially a kitten??
Duiz.)

And and and... It started to drink milk now!!!

Oh and...I still haven't forget about my hammies yet.

Look!

Btw, it's sleeping.

Happy birthday, wherever you are

12.3.2009

I received a message from my lil' bro:

'You know whose birthday izzit today? Reply me when you are free.'

Such a weird question...
I was thinking perhaps he knew that it was someone's birthday, but he couldn't recall whose.
Or... he was just being very kind, trying to remind me of an important someone's birthday.

Not dad, not mom, not sis, not bro, not grandma, not grandpa, not me, not you, not ex, not crush... whose la....

Thus I replied:
'I'm very free now. But I donno whose birthday is that. I know today spm release la. Go check on the internet la if you wanna know whose birthday is that.'
[bear with that pathetically terrible command of language. Yea that's how we communicate]

Then he replied:
'Today is hamsters' birthday. But I donno which hamsters la...'

...

Since when I have become so careless?
I witnessed the delivery, for the very first time, and yet, I totally forgotten about it.
And my brother, who was 300kms away when the hammie mommie gave birth, taken the birthdate down when I told him about it...

Sigh.. anyway, most of the hammies had been given away...

Wherever you are... happy birthday... T.T

hi

Just to let you know, I'm not dead yet.

Dearest blog, sorry for abandoning you for such a long time.

It's been so long since I browsed some personal blog (and update my blog).

I have been so busily browsing food blogs.
Like Bakerella. (she's really creative. I wish I were her niece)

and Cake Journal.
Not forgetting evergreen and all-encompassing Allrecipes.com. (literally)
and much much much more.

As the consequence, I've put on few more extra pounds.. (again.)
*resolution broken on the 2nd month of the year. Mending it now*

Anyway, speaking about food, I have some kids' talk to share with you guys.

So I was baking some heart-shaped cut-out cookies when my 7 year-old cousin came over.
He saw some alphabet cookies cutters and insisted me to cut some Ds for him.
(his name is David, btw)
I cut one, but he wasn't quite satisfied with it.
He wanted a whole tray of Ds instead.

So I asked him,
'there's no D in my name, why should I cut Ds?'

And his reply, a brilliant one,
'There's no 'love' (by that he meant those heart-shaped cookies) in your name,
why did you make them?'

Fine... I am speechless.

Since I don't need more Ds and I don't want to make more of it,
(and abit of being annoyed...)
I told him I wanted to study and I would bake it later.

I then grabbed my file and went out to the living room, and joined the rest for a tv show.

David then sit beside me and whispered to me,
I thought you said you want to study?

*bang*
I, still holding the file in my hand, is now officially speechless.
Get slapped by a kid, shameful or not?

*sigh*

Oh ya, on a side note... a sad sad sad sad case,
something I don't wish to announce but I have to..
Gugu is dead.
During CNY.
I guess I just don't mean to raise any pets.
Will write a post on how many pitiful animals were killed in my hands...

*sigh*

God knows me well

Really.

You see, I was being grumpy because I kept thinking that I would be very free. Though I had to send my brother all the way to Petaling Street to meet his girlfriend who stayed at YWCA. -.- It was not that he couldn't drive nor he didn't know the way, it was simply because my grandma was worried that he couldn't drive or he didn't know the road, which was totally contrary to the fact. It's like going back to college even on my holiday. 13kms of distance. What a good sister I am. Quite reluctant to be a good sister anyway.

Sigh. Ying Huey wasn't free to layan me because she had to busy with her school orientation. So I have to back home. I couldn't go shopping because I didn't have the mood to. Shit I have lose the interest to shop. Anyway, I went home after that. (Then gotta go all the way to Petaling Street to fetch my bro when he's done)

I was being sulky (partly was because of those stupid menstrual syndrome) for lack of companion. My boyfriend is with his family at Sabah, QQ is enjoying her summer or winter at Queensland, Mei Yi is enjoying the breeze and the fresh air at Kedah and Ying Huey is busy with her school orientation event. Others.. studying, working.. Find your collegemates la... Ceh as if I have not thought of it before. Most of them have backed to Kampung. Not much of KLites in my college.

Anyway, when I turned into a junction, I saw Ying Huey!!! I got very excited and horned and tried to waved with her, showing my brightest smile, hoping that she could see me. But she didn't. 1 second after that, I heard a 'BANG!!!!!!!!'. Okay la, not that loud. it's just a 'BANG!!!'

-.-

I crashed into a lorry with a metal container. But thank god. It wasn't as serious as last time. I still could drive my car. Was being quite nervous but not as nervous as last time. Last time tried to act cool but couldn't. I cried. Today was better, I even waved with the driver in the Kelisa who offered to help. I slowly reserved the car, then drove off again.

Well, I was thinking,

God knows me well.

I was ranting (to myself) about how free I would be in these few days because I am lack of companion to go anywhere. Then, God heard me and gave me this duty. I had to contact the insurance agent, the repairman, Jia Liang who is going to bring me tothe repair shop because he knows that place well, explain to my family of what happened yadda yadda. Oh gosh. My life was so packed now. I've got so many things to do now.

Thank you god.
See. Not that serious.
Really. Not that serious. Luckily the front light wasn't crashed. I wouldn't have to replace it.

For those whom may concern, I'm okay~
Oh by the way, my hamster gave birth to five babies again.

I feel so thirsty while I'm typing this post

I'm not sure about what's running in my mind but I just feel like typing.

2 hammies are gone today. Gone as in, they are adopted. I went to meet their new mommy at Petaling Streets today. I saw this lady, in white, loose t-shirt, with her long hair tied loosely standing in front of petsmore together with a big cage and a pack of 1kg wood shreds sitting as her companions. The RM70 cage is readily covered with wood shreds. I could immediately sense that she's the new hammies' mommy. I was glad. I know that she would be a good hammie mommy. One even better than me.

But still, I intended to make a call to confirm. Before the line was connected, this lady smiled to me and I read her lips saying cheryl?. Seconds later, her phone rang and she told me, 'are you calling me?' Gosh. Damn stupid me. I didn't press the reject button after I made that phone call. I just put it into my pocket because I was too excited of meeting their new mommy. I kept sending apologies to her and she never failed to show that smiling face, saying it's okay, it's okay. What a nice lady. I have been late for 40 mins because of some unforesee circumstances and she was there by 20 minutes earlier. Overall she has waited me for an hour. Gosh, guilty, guilty, guilty.

Just texted her and she said the babies are too young to go upstairs and exercise yet. Awh babies... I miss you.

babies' pic will be uploaded later. have exchanged labtop with Arthur. He wants a labtop with better performance in gaming while I want one which is not so trashy.

P/S: baybee.. you shouldn't have suggested to exchange~~ I have discovered some secret of yours nyaha~
Next time remember to sign out your mailbox and clear all those internet history ya~~ haha~


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Silence. Again.

No more laughters, no more naggings.
No more clothes sharing, no more dota training.

Yes, back to silence, again.

Yea, the laptop is all mine now,
the queen size bed is all mine now,
the bathroom is all mine now,
I can now use everything whenever I wish to.

But that's not what I wish. I wish I could share them with someone. I wish someone would really grab that labtop during my toilet break. I wish someone would wet the whole bathroom after they use the toilet. I wish someone would distract me while I'm concentrating on those black letters on my textbooks. I wish someone would keep clicking the mouse creating those clickering clickery clicks noise while playing dota. At least I have the chance to scold them.. well, at least I have the chance to talk to someone.

I miss you guys too.

*Aiyo... I wanna upload pictures la baybee...*

This post will be edited soon~

Few more again

Hamster mommy has given birth to 5 hammies babies on 22nd May 2008~~ again~

I'm not sure about how many of them. I dare not to touch them. They are warmly protected by hamster mommy in the box I provided. Not able to count.

Will update with the pictures and the number of babies soon...

If my mommy does not allow Leng Girl and Zhi Boy have it, will sell it off for RM10 each~~(wei... retail price at least RM18 okay??) ^^

*updated on 30/5/2008*

Okay~ they are slightly bigger now, I finally manage to snap few pictures of them~

27/5/2008

29/5/2008The only blackie.

Will keep updating their status~

For a visual of how they will look like in the future, click here~

Here for the adoption notice~
http://www.petfinder.my/pets/1225/

xx hour famine

So I joined 30 Hour Famine 5 years ago.

And right now, I'm starving like 5 years ago, again.

I do not make myself hungry for hope, but I am forced to. Cause again, I have difficulty in eating.

Yea, you got it. It's because of my braces again.

Before that, I used to be like,

'well I don't get why will they slim down by wearing braces. I still can eat as usual what.'
'well I don't get why your friend have to tear the steak into pieces. I still can eat as usual what.'
'well I don't get.. blablablablabla.' enough. super bitchy right?

Now I get everything - after the first time of getting my braces tighten after the extraction of my teeth. My teeth are pushed inward now. Previously the dentist did the same thing to my teeth too, but I could barely feel the pain. This time, I feel it.

Grr. I was merely drinking mushroom soup and tiramisu shake while Arthur was eating his mix steak. Grrrrrrr.... I didn't even chew the mushrooms. I just swallow it.

Oh... I am underfed and this is so not me. Food please. Something solid, please. No more liquid, please. So damn hungry la man. And it's only my first day.

By the way, my lui lui's babies are well fed and they are of this size today. It's just 14 days~~Baby drinking milk while mami sleeping.


Ah. Finally, a family portrait.

P/S: happy 30th monthsary!! You know what I mean~ *wink*

Gugu's invasion

*scratch scratch scratch*

*rub rub rub*

Hmm?? my turn to speak?? alright alright....

Hi~ I am Gugu. This name given by Mami's friend, Ying Huey.

This is my girlfriend, JiaoJiao, also named by aunty Ying Huey. In chinese, 娇娇. It was named right before the Gillian Chung's sex scandal revealed.I love her eyes~ I mean, who doesn't??

Actually Gugu is not my name. It's a name of JiaoJiao's ex-hubbie. It was murdered by some cruel creatures for protecting the food...

Anyway, mami afraid that JiaoJiao would die of loneliness. So she bought me, to be the companion of JiaoJiao.

Things did not go as well as how mami has expected. JJ didn't like me. She... she had maliciously beaten me up. It's not about PMS or what. She just did that like everyday. There was nothing wrong with me k? I thought a girl meant yes when she said no. I got one eye blind as my punishment. Poor me.

We got separated. I was placed in another home. After a while, when I grew up, having the same size with JiaoJiao, mami put us together again. Finally, JJ accepted me~~ ^^

I love babies. Problem arise. JiaoJiao doesn't love sex. So we seldom make love. Even if we do, it's half-rape. She always run away when I intend to make love with her.

After putting in efforts for 5 months, oh............ We have our own babies... on 11th March 2008~

We were working really hard in raising our pups up. I built the nest while she breast-fed the pups for almost 24-7, even when she was sleeping. But sometimes she would have forgotten her child when she looked for food. And I would have to fetch my baby back to their nest.
poor child get abandoned...

On day 5, their hair have started to grow. One weird thing I realized. There is one baby who is different than the others. It's black in color. I was suspecting JJ but it's really impossible that JJ cheated me. I am the only man in the house anyway. Weird weird weird.

On day 8 after the babies were borned, we were thinking of letting them be independent. So we started to sleep together and left them alone.

Cannot la.. they were crying too loud and we felt so pain for leaving them. JJ went back to take care of them again. Anyway it's day 10 now. Their eyes have opened and they have started wondering around.

It feels so good to be a dad.

Randomly posted

I have been leaving my blog for sooooo long. It's already frozen I guess.

This entry is more or less like a weekly diary. A compilation of everything which happened this week.

1st March 2008
(hooiseh. got date somemore. so primary school)

The following paragraph will be written in Chinese. Chinese New Year Carnival organized by Chinese Society of S.M.K. Taman Connaught. Of course I have to write it in Chinese.

华文学会新春晚会。多么熟悉的一个词眼。


我似乎还能嗅到后台的味道，

还能感觉‘会前忧郁症’。

担心这，担心那...

当我们以为晚会办得很成功时，孰不知观众并没有同样的想法。

第一次当观众，没错，我觉得他们办得满成功的。

不对，大家只是在自己骗自己， 实际上，观众并没有你们想像中那么的享受。


Taking a pic of someone taking a pic of hwai li's

4th March 2008 ~ 7th March 2008

Exam mood. Most have them skipped the mock exams.
I'm considered very good le wei. I only skipped Public Law.
Sorry Mr. Wai Nyan.

7th March 2008
Shopping!!!!!

Eh.. tell you guys something. This is the first time I been to Bangsar Baru. Ask me why then I will tell u.

And I was truly glad to discover Bangsar Baru!!!! aiyo... I should have been there earlier..

And and, following the discovery of Bangsar Baru, I found a truly useful online shopping site. I feel I was in a mega virtual shopping mall when I was at Emmagem. Check this out girls, u really should~~



Try it~~ you won't regret~~


I especially love these from...

http://linniejewels.blogspot.com/

8th March 2008
Everyone knows what happened on this day.

Some call this the 2nd 516, which I think is bullshit.

The place I stay is no longer under Dato Tan Chai Ho. Tan Sri Abdul Khalid Ibrahim took it over.

Well, Datuk Tan, someone who can only be seen giving speech at occasions in the school, e.g., sports day, carnivals, etc.etc., compared someone who graduated from the University Malaya with a Bachelor Degree in Economics and later obtained an MBA from the University of Queensland, I think the latter could serve us more promptly.

Hope that my Taman Connaught wouldn't be changed to Taman Cendekiawan. Connaught, such a nice name.

10th March 2008
Happy birthday Yeng Chern!!
Happy be-earliered birthday Hwai Li!!

I paid RM46 to Skybar for drinking plain water~~ ^^
I can't drink because I'm a G6PD Deficiency. (Bullshit. simply say only. the only thing can't be done by a G6PD Deficiency is donate blood)

I have to put this pic because both YYs are way too pretty.

And this Lam Zhen Cheq really got no ears. He doesn't understand the meaning of 'come here n take pic together!!!!!' We were all waiting for him lorrrr.......!!!! duh.


Irritating.

Annoying.
Duh!!! enough or not?????

11th March 2008
Again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HWAI LI!!!!!!

Today, perhaps, is my happiest day in my life. I can predict that, although it's only a quarter of the year.

Nothing can be happier than welcoming new life into my family.

Guess what??

My Gugu Jiaojiao (named by Ying Huey) have now became Daddy and Mommy of 4!!!

Come come, let you see their babies~~~ They are still very fleshy and could barely walk~

Next. Mommy sleeping with babies. Awwwwwwww... how sweet...

Bad Hammies...

My hammies which I thought were cute ain't that cute anymore. They have started to fight with each other now!!

I had 2 hammies.

One died.

Ignoring all the answers on Yahoo ask! I bought another hammy for its companion. Pity on her... (I do know the fact that there are solitary animals).

On the first few weeks, they acted like they were compatible. They played together, ate together, and slept with each other.

Recently, they have started to fight and made some squeeks... not merely some, alot of them!! The old hammy was charging on the new one. When the new one saw the old one, it would run away. They weren't like that last time. Really sad of seeing this.

Now I have to separate them. I put the old one into a box, it managed to bite the box and sneaked out. Then, I put it into an upside-down dustbin. The same happened. Aiks... For the whole night, I was trying to look for a new place for it.

Finally, I put it into a round plastic container (20cm of diameters x 15cm of height).

I really do not want to separate them. I want hammy babies....

But look at what it did....


















No... NoNo... Not this... Not acting cute....

This...

















Aiyo...